“You could love me more in a moment, than other lovers could in a lifetime.”
— Steffany Frizzell (via onyourprettywings)
My name is Abegail. I'm living for the One who breathed me into existence as part of a movement that's greater than life itself.
Bay Area, Cali
Graphic Designer @ SJSU
Matthew 28:19-20
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Bay Area, Cali
Graphic Designer @ SJSU
Matthew 28:19-20
• the other {cooler} blog
• portfolio
• about
• Ask me anything
#Revival
So, I have a job interview tomorrow for EOP (educational opportunity program). Doing some research and prepping, I realized how perfect this opportunity would be. This program strives to help first generation college students get situated into SJSU and fulfill their personal/academic goals. They have several mentoring programs and workshops to help students find their identity within their college community. The position I’m applying for is as Graphic Designer, but I know that I’d be putting more of my efforts into it. I wanted to create a mentorship program myself, and I think working with EOP would help me learn how to create one. I’m thinking while typing this, and man! This sounds like what I’ve been praying about! Woah, thank you Jesus.
Decisions
For the past two years I’ve been able to manage 15+ units while having a solid spiritual/social life. But next year, things are starting to get real. I’m currently on a job hunt, trying to work as a graphic designer for either the Student Union or EOP program. I NEED the money to pay for rent and help ease my dad’s financial burdens. On top of a job, I’ll be co-president of UIC, the council of the Christian ministries on campus. On top of that and that, I want to host a mentorship program for incoming first years that’ll require a lot of my attention. On top of that and that and that, I’ll be part of Akbayan cores. Oh, did I mention I’m trying to get into the BFA program for GD? That alone requires a 3.0+ GPA and a portfolio review. I don’t know where to cut back on as I see each thing I want to do as important. Right now I’m thinking, if I get a job, then I’d have to drop a class and keep the work load at 13 units. But I’m not sure if that’d delay my graduation rate. I really gotta pray about this.
I wish I had a girl mentor to look up to. All the advice I get are from guys. Girls are so prissy and princessy. Then there’s me, overly-complicated with questions no girl even really ponders.
Now, this is going to sound weird, but I promise I’m telling the truth.
Lately, I’ve been learning that God can speak through visions and dreams (prophecy), and that we can receive them today. Prophecy is to be used to encourage and edify our brothers and sisters as well as build up the church. Sometimes the visions are of pictures, words, or bible verses. Dreams are almost always symbolic and are messages that reveal what’s hidden in our conscious, are to encourage us, or warn us about future events. I’ve had a couple already, and with practice it just gets better.
Lisa at Amor
I asked God how I could encourage the owner of the milk tea shop downtown SJ. I saw a picture of her in a huge kitchen wearing a chef’s coat followed by the verse Ruth 3:11 which says “Don’t worry my daughter for everyone in town knows you’re a virtuous woman”.
Isaiah in the bookstore
Jomarie and I won tickets and wanted to give it away. I saw a picture of a man in a white polo. Met a man named Isaiah who’s daughter was to attend SJSU. He was nervous she would join the wrong crowd, so we prayed for her.
Keith at Pulse
I wanted to explain to him how this gift works, but didn’t know how to prove it was a gift from God. God gave me a vision of him in body armor followed by Daniel 10:11. Asked Keith if it had any significance, he said he prayed about why was he the only one fighting for God just the night before.
There’s some other instances where God spoke to me through visions and dreams that I’m too lazy to type right now, but I’m definitely blessed to take my faith at a deeper level. Who said being Christian was boring? My life is definitely an adventure learning all these secrets and the infinite knowledge our Father has waiting for us to discover.
Book 2 stills-to-gifs [x,x,x], requested by animationtidbits - updated 08/06/2013 with new gif
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why was kim jong ill on my login page? o_O
This week was the last time we’d be together as a cab. I’m thankful for all the memories and lessons I learned bc of them. I don’t know exactly where I’ll be next year or the rest of college, but I’m glad Akbayan was that stepping stone that taught me what it takes to be a leader. I love you guys! And good luck to new cab, you’re in for a great journey. #36ROOTS 👌
My fear is that my brother wouldn’t be able to handle this pressure and not just take the blame, but take his life. Lord, deliver him from those evil thoughts and keep him under your wing. In Jesus name, amen.
When you do something dumb, trust me, I will call you out on it. Why? Because I care enough to see my people roll with me on the right path instead of leave them in the dust. I will drag you across the finish line or carry you on my back if I have to. And if you knew me, you’d know that my heart is bigger than the stick that I carry. It hurts me to have to see you slip. Because I understand it all more than you think. I see things from an eternal perspective, with these eyes that the Father has given me. Sometimes I wish He’d take them away because this burden gets even heavier than yours. I can only imagine how Jesus must have felt carrying ALL of humanities burdens once and for all that day. But knowing that He won reminds me that you and I shall both triumph one day.
-Your little sister
“To fall in love with God is the greatest romance; to seek Him, the greatest adventure; to find Him, the greatest achievement.”
— Augustine (via onfireforgod)
(via imonlylivingforyou)
Can I just stay home and write poetry all day?
It’s Deeper Than That.
You’re fighting these battles, not of the flesh but of man against self.
It’s deeper than that.
I see the pen that strikes your cheek; it causes streaks not of blood but of failure.
It’s deeper than that.
A Cali grown man, lost in translation.
It’s not the language you’re not understanding, it’s the customs that create boundaries.
It’s deeper than that.
7,000 miles, two different countries.
No measurement can accurately measure our distance because the miles didn’t create it in the first place.
It’s deeper than that.
The root cause of it all is the condition of your heart, so bitterly cold and lacking direction.
So much anger and hate, self inflicted. Bottled up inside and hidden by the scent of some stoges and a bottle of…lies.
I don’t know who you think you’re fooling because I know too well.
It’s deeper than that.
And as much as I wanna hate you, or blame you, even shake this shit out of you,
It’s deeper than that.
I want you to know it hurts to see you hurt, and I worry about you worrying all the time.
It’s deeper than that.
I cry every time you hang up the phone, or think about how it’s already been a year since we last hugged.
It’s deeper than that.
I tend to reminisce on the inside jokes, how we matched our shoes and or acted as fools.
Cus in reality, you are more than my best friend.
It’s deeper than that.
A brother who shares the same last name. Carries the same DNA and history of our ancestors.
Someone who’s constantly in my prayers. Someone I’m willing to lay my life down for.
It’s deeper than that.
And for the record, I love you. More than I do milk tea or you do your shoes.
More than time can tell or words can spell. Or how about the depths of the ocean? You guessed it,
It’s deeper than that.
Sophomore Year Reflection
Sweet I finally have time and a peace of mind to write.
Wow, just wow. Another year of growth. Getting to live with my room mates who are all unique yet relatable to each of them started off the year. I remember when I first learned I’d be living with a black girl, I was so judgmental. But God sent Cherise to remind me of His strength in character and compassion for family. We were born on the same day, have the same views on relationships, and praise God like fools. I gave someone a second shot with my emotions but we weren’t on the same level with our goals in life. I went through first semester so fast and it was all a blur to me. Friendship games being one of the highlights because that was the first time I took a roadtrip without my parents. Most of my memories belong with Akbayan. Like seriously, I owe so much of my growth and understanding to the org. I’ve been blessed with a Kuya who acted as a guide when I first got here to college, and then my adings who I get to return the favor for. Every single cab member has taught me something, whether about themselves or something about myself. These core values of knowing the culture, getting involved within the community, and overall embracing in friendship will always be something I hold onto. And of course, God taught me lessons through it all. I’ve been hungry to know who He is. From love fest to Rise Up tour, I know that God wants revival to happen on this campus and in this city. God has awaken my heart to his purpose of the great commission and I just want to walk in obedience. I never believed in healing until I got healed last year. I thought that only certain people were given these gifts and all of a sudden God has blessed me with his Spirit. I started speaking in tongues, fighting battles with evil spirits, getting visions and having dreams. It is all too real! And this is the most on fire I have ever been but i STILL want more. My heart is just burning with passion, to know God’s love and to make His love known. I would have never imagined in my life that I’d be praying with the homeless, giving them 20 bucks as if they were ones. But God is so good, and He has blessed me SO THAT I could bless others. I know that He’s just smiling down on me and my friends because we’re finally seeing what the Gospel is about. I just want to pray for more, walk in obedience, be more diligent, have more knowledge of his word and his will for me. To never stop seeking, never stop learning, never stop praying. I don’t even know what this summer holds. Whether it’s to stay in SJ or move back to Pitt. Or where he wants me to be next year, I still need to find room mates. It worries me because He gives so many options, I just need to chooose. God wherever I need to be, let it be where you are.
