I haven’t posted on tumblr in what seems like forever. But I just wanted to note that I feel like a victory is imminent in my life. Break through is gonna come for not just me, but for my family. I can’t wait to go to the Philippines. Really praying that something happens to push as all forward into the right direction.
12:48 am • 6 December 2013 • 2 notes
Dude..I just yelled at my mom. Told her being in the PI and watching over my brother aint enough and she should be helping pay bills. I feel real childish and real selfish. I’m part of the reason why we’re struggling financially. What the hell did I get us into.
10:02 pm • 3 August 2013 • 1 note
I hate summer. I hate her crooked teeth. I hate her 1960s haircut. I hate her knobby knees. I hate her cockroach-shaped splotch on her neck… Just kidding. But really, I never seem to enjoy my summers as much as everyone else does. All I ever do is stay home, read some books, catch up on shows I didn’t watch during the school year, stuff like that. I share rooms with my dad and the only people to kickit with are my cousins. I don’t even bother to hit up high school friends because..heck idk? Things are just different. I get this real bad case of apathy too. No angst for school, don’t wanna be creative..I just put life on pause to sulk. I even get this idea that I’m not meant to be in graphic design blah blah blah. Just pathetic. Why didn’t I sign up for summer school? Or like, fat camp? LOL.
Now that school is less than three weeks away, I’m just more worried than excited. My dad is mad that I got an apartment instead of staying in the dorms. We’re not even sure if we can make rent each month. I’m a semester behind from where I should be, and because of last semester’s grades, I gotta work my ass off to get into the BFA program. Idk how next year is gonna look like. I’m probably gonna have to disappear for a little bit to get my priorities straight. What I DO look forward to is going back to church and working with all the fellowships again. I haven’t had any of that back home, and that’s my life’s purpose. Probably the biggest reason why I’m so negative. Nag nag whine whine nag whine. Peace.
1:16 am • 3 August 2013 • 1 note
For the past few days I’ve been nothing but grateful for my dad. He just got back from the Philippines, dealing with my brother and mom and the next day, he’s willing to take me to work since Bart was on strike. After work, he picked me up and drove all the way to Vegas. He didn’t even want me to help him drive. He checked both families that visited us into separate hotels under his name and paid for all 12 of us dinner at a buffet, all without boasting or complaining once. Yesterday he accidentally left his car keys and house keys in the car door. We were gone for more than 4 hours, yet the keys were still there. Mind you, this is in Vegas during 4th of July weekend. Today, a plane crash at SFO was announced. That Asiana plane was the one my dad has been taking to and from the Philippines 3-5 times this year alone..if he scheduled his flight just one week later, that could have been him. I’m so thankful God softened my dad’s heart because our relationship was nothing like this 5 years ago. I’m really afraid that I wouldn’t be able to live up to my dad’s name. He’s gotten us so far and I know my choice of career isn’t gonna get me even half of what he makes now. I wanna show him that I could do as much as he does for my family once I have one. That’s how I know I’ll repay him.
2:58 am • 7 July 2013 • 4 notes
I just wanna be able to have legit conversations with my parents. Not just “how is everything?” or “do you have enough money?” I try to even talk about things that interest them but no luck. Am I that boring?
11:48 pm • 24 June 2013
“You could love me more in a moment, than other lovers could in a lifetime.”
— Steffany Frizzell (via onyourprettywings)
2:42 am • 13 June 2013 • 32 notes
So, I have a job interview tomorrow for EOP (educational opportunity program). Doing some research and prepping, I realized how perfect this opportunity would be. This program strives to help first generation college students get situated into SJSU and fulfill their personal/academic goals. They have several mentoring programs and workshops to help students find their identity within their college community. The position I’m applying for is as Graphic Designer, but I know that I’d be putting more of my efforts into it. I wanted to create a mentorship program myself, and I think working with EOP would help me learn how to create one. I’m thinking while typing this, and man! This sounds like what I’ve been praying about! Woah, thank you Jesus.
12:24 am • 13 June 2013 • 1 note
For the past two years I’ve been able to manage 15+ units while having a solid spiritual/social life. But next year, things are starting to get real. I’m currently on a job hunt, trying to work as a graphic designer for either the Student Union or EOP program. I NEED the money to pay for rent and help ease my dad’s financial burdens. On top of a job, I’ll be co-president of UIC, the council of the Christian ministries on campus. On top of that and that, I want to host a mentorship program for incoming first years that’ll require a lot of my attention. On top of that and that and that, I’ll be part of Akbayan cores. Oh, did I mention I’m trying to get into the BFA program for GD? That alone requires a 3.0+ GPA and a portfolio review. I don’t know where to cut back on as I see each thing I want to do as important. Right now I’m thinking, if I get a job, then I’d have to drop a class and keep the work load at 13 units. But I’m not sure if that’d delay my graduation rate. I really gotta pray about this.
3:37 am • 12 June 2013
I wish I had a girl mentor to look up to. All the advice I get are from guys. Girls are so prissy and princessy. Then there’s me, overly-complicated with questions no girl even really ponders.
1:56 pm • 11 June 2013
Now, this is going to sound weird, but I promise I’m telling the truth.
Lately, I’ve been learning that God can speak through visions and dreams (prophecy), and that we can receive them today. Prophecy is to be used to encourage and edify our brothers and sisters as well as build up the church. Sometimes the visions are of pictures, words, or bible verses. Dreams are almost always symbolic and are messages that reveal what’s hidden in our conscious, are to encourage us, or warn us about future events. I’ve had a couple already, and with practice it just gets better.
Lisa at Amor
I asked God how I could encourage the owner of the milk tea shop downtown SJ. I saw a picture of her in a huge kitchen wearing a chef’s coat followed by the verse Ruth 3:11 which says “Don’t worry my daughter for everyone in town knows you’re a virtuous woman”.
Isaiah in the bookstore
Jomarie and I won tickets and wanted to give it away. I saw a picture of a man in a white polo. Met a man named Isaiah who’s daughter was to attend SJSU. He was nervous she would join the wrong crowd, so we prayed for her.
Keith at Pulse
I wanted to explain to him how this gift works, but didn’t know how to prove it was a gift from God. God gave me a vision of him in body armor followed by Daniel 10:11. Asked Keith if it had any significance, he said he prayed about why was he the only one fighting for God just the night before.
There’s some other instances where God spoke to me through visions and dreams that I’m too lazy to type right now, but I’m definitely blessed to take my faith at a deeper level. Who said being Christian was boring? My life is definitely an adventure learning all these secrets and the infinite knowledge our Father has waiting for us to discover.
2:14 am • 9 June 2013 • 2 notes
Book 2 stills-to-gifs [x,x,x], requested by animationtidbits - updated 08/06/2013 with new gif
1:24 am • 9 June 2013 • 22,089 notes
This is what my day consisted of. I’m horrible at this.
12:30 am • 8 June 2013 • 6 notes
why was kim jong ill on my login page? o_O
12:29 am • 8 June 2013 • 1 note
This week was the last time we’d be together as a cab. I’m thankful for all the memories and lessons I learned bc of them. I don’t know exactly where I’ll be next year or the rest of college, but I’m glad Akbayan was that stepping stone that taught me what it takes to be a leader. I love you guys! And good luck to new cab, you’re in for a great journey. #36ROOTS 👌
9:55 pm • 31 May 2013